Am I Right Side Up or Upside Down?

The first thing you need to know is that I'm smiling right now.  Why?  Because I have survived the worst couple of weeks since I left Nick.  And I'm writing this now while I'm in a pretty decent mood to quench everyone's thirst for the update they've been asking for.  On that note, sorry for my silence (other than my comedy relief on facebook).  I don't mean not to answer calls and such.  Well, I do.  But it's been for good reason.  a) I only have so much time in the day and I've been super busy dealing with and making arrangements for the stuff that's been going on with the divorce.  Protecting your assets is no lazy game, my friends.  It's downright scary.  It makes my brain hurt and my overall mood a dangerous one.  So, I had to move quickly with some things.  b) I have no desire at this point in time to burden anyone with my problems.  I appreciate, more than you know, the friends that have been there for me at any point over the past year and that continually offer to be there whenever I need them.  But I just can't do that.  Kristen has been my go-to person, and I almost feel like apologizing to her for that.  Though aside from that, I had to handle this one on my own.  No one needs to hear from a gloomy gus.

So...I'm not going to go into big detail about the divorce sitch as this is a public blog.  However, I will give you a few pieces of what's been going on around here.

1) I got the offer from NJ, but I have to turn it down.  Part of the reason is the recommendation from my attorney.  If you'd like to know more, you know how to contact me.  But in general, I will be staying in PA for a little while longer.

2) I've officially (as opposed to unofficially) lost 69 lbs since last year.  Not related to this topic, but thought I'd throw it in there.

3) I thank the friends that feel the need to give me any and all info about topics they think I care about right now.  But I'd like to ask you not to.  There are some things better left unsaid and ignorance is sometimes bliss.  I'd like to maintain my friendships and not sour them by knowing more than I should, if that makes any sense.  Let others tell me their business when they're good and ready.  Likewise, don't ask me for info.  I will not give it.  I would very much like to take higher ground here.  Again, I'm not a gossip and I really don't want to discuss other people's lives.  Except with K at the moment because she has the luxury of living next door to my sorry ass.  But other than that, I know nothing.  Remember that.

4) Now that the divorce has entered more serious ground, things are getting 'ugly' as most people describe divorces.  It pretty much blows. Trying to be civil, fair, and generally an adult.  That's it.

I suppose I could say a little more, but that's the big stuff.  The rest is just a slew of details that I'd like to forget.  I'm happy right now, though, because as horrible as I was feeling because I was so worried about things, the light at the end of the tunnel has appeared.  I'm typically not that negative about life, so I guess I might have worried even myself for a moment.  Now that I've regained a sense of priority (my children at the forefront), I feel a lot freer and less sad about things.  I'm 28, and while I sometimes panic at that because I feel like a decade has been wasted and I should be much further along at this point in my life.  At the same time, I realized that I'm only 28 :) and I have a hell of a lot of life to live.  I don't want to waste any more time on anything that's not going to make me happy.  I love my life; I love my friends; I love every experience I've had; I love me.  So, that being said...only good times ahead with maybe a few expected/unexpected hiccups along the way.  Cause ya know...it is what it is.