Is it wrong to just want to be left alone? Is it wrong to want to, I don't know, avoid drama? Does some sort of human manual exist that I don't have in my arsenal that states drama is a must? I just want to have uncomplicated relationships, friendships, even trysts, whatever. And I'd like each relationship to be between me and that other person only. Just a one on one little world that no one can penetrate. Now, it goes to say that the other person can have as many relationships as they want outside of our world. Likewise, so can I. But the important part is that no one else is involved in ours. Why is this so important? Because everyone has a fucking agenda! Everyone screws it up whether they intend to or not. People are selfish and unrealistic. Do I have to alienate myself to reach a point where I am no longer affected by this? What do I have to do to make it stop? These are the things that push people away. These are the building blocks of walls. These are ridiculous gestures of immaturity. I can't so much handle any of that, nor should I.
It is also important for me to note that I was super happy last night and this morning. Does that somehow signal to others that they must immediately take action to ruin that? Seriously!
FYI...have been made to feel much better now. Screaming headache, but I'm smiling. It'll all turn out okay. :)
ReplyDeleteI have read this twice and still cannot think of a witty or helpful thing to say. I do hope you get what you are looking for and I hope NO ONE stands in your way. Thats all my dear.
ReplyDeleteI don't know. Every day brings something new to the development or lack thereof. I just need to learn to go with the flow, yo.
ReplyDeleteYes. Go with the flow. But when your flow is stopped by a pesky, huge, and scary clog, pour some draino on the bitch and move on.
ReplyDeleteThat is the 2nd funniest thing I've ever read.
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